In the Heart of Darkness and Light
On June 8, 2013, ‘Congo’ — Season 1, Episode 7 of Parts Unknown was aired on CNN.
“It is the most relentlessly fucked-over nation in the world, yet it has long been my dream to see Congo. And for my sins, I got my wish.” Bourdain starts the episode off on a dramatic note as he tries to recreate his favorite book, Heart of Darkness.
On June 8, 2018, he committed suicide while on location in France for Parts Unknown. The suicide appeared to be an “impulsive act“.
That’s not easy to do.Especially for the talented Performer Artisans.
For they are the happiest people in the world, but…
On the side of light: There are the highs, the higher highs, and the highest high.
On the side of dark: Then there are the lows, the lower lows, and the lowest of lows.
Creativity can be an addiction.
— Robin Williams
What happens when you feel that your creativity and grace disappeared, not to be found ever again? There is no faking(acting) a fix. No, the quick fix of drugs and alcohol can’t solve the problem, either.
The curtain rises on the scene
With someone shouting to be free
The play unfolds before my eyes
There stands the actor who is me.
The Word that Dr. Keirsey used for this is Latin (via French): ENNUI
Freedom just another word for,
nothing left to lose.
a feeling of listlessness and dissatisfaction arising from a lack of occupation or excitement.
||boredom, tedium, listlessness, lethargy, lassitude, languor, weariness, enervation;
malaise, dissatisfaction, melancholy, depression, world-weariness, Weltschmerz
“an ennui bred of long familiarity”
“Ennui” is how the Artisans become “depressed.” There are two kinds of “depression” (for two of the Temperaments) and they are quite different. Depression for the Guardian is painful and “red”: they are very sick and very tired: they are demobilized. The Artisan “ennui” is akin to boredom — they find themselves in grey and fog filled landscape, they are beguiled. To them, they feel in their gut, nothing exciting will ever happen again. It scares the Artisan…